Okie...

i was blog hopping n blog hopping,...n hopping n hopping n hopping...

arggh wadeva...okie

i saw a lot of nostalgic posts...

and i realise...i had none...i think i am one that doesn't like to think of the past...but yet...at the bottom of my heart...i love my past...maybe its because of this fact that i abosultely hate to think of the past...

but WHY?

perhaps its fear...fear to look back on my life, fear to reflect...fear to compare...

i am happy with my cureent life...because i don't compare with my past...i just realise...if i really do compare...(i will be very unhappy)

i will notice that i changed alot...alot alot alot...but changing is a way of growing up...

so that means that i am scared of growing up...i don't want to...i just want to stay happy happy n HAPPY...and living in the worldw here i don't have to carw about anything...

but when you grow up, you have to face alot of things...alot of problems...they say, the obstacles of life

i learnt alot of stuff this year, the year...which i've "grown up" the most...learnt more, know more, saw more...

this class ar...really thought me alot...so i should have lots of gratitude for it...hm...

taught me the meaning of alo of badwords...im not so cukoo head le...i understand those ahem jokes...(atleast more then when i first came in)...i am more...i also duno how to say or explain...i just feel more...different??

and i understand myself more. =)) and i won be so much disturbed by people saying me act cute, or wadeva...because, i am what i am.i can't change...of cos i can change if the comment is really true or i really did wrongly...but comments lke me act cute(i cant change cos i wan't even acting in the first place...THANKS for saying me cute XD) yeah n act nice...im nice lar.face it oops.hahaha

its just...yeah comments are a way for you to really see the people around you. no one told me those commens when i was young(see! i told you thinking of the past only makes one sadder) but it also shows that...this environment is already more complicated...in this environment, we have learnt to label people. bimbo act cute act cool ah beng...etc. when u were young, you treat ppl as how you know them. and you get use to them...now...you label people, and you want them to change to suit you. yeps...complicated huh?

no longer the way of treating people as how they are.

but i am lucky already. yeah atleast i wasn't treated as the outcast of the class...=)) i was treated as one of them...thats nice le. thats why i treat those outcast so nicely..haha...fear of becoming like them one fine day.

i was welcomed! (yay!) and i had ALOT ALOT of nice nice friends...This year is nice afterall...i don't dislike any people in my class...yes, maybe during the year there was...but...i duno lar...i like every single one of them now...even those i dun like in the middle of the year...i like them now.










so it proves that, enemies can become friends.it really depends on how you see others.
you can actually play and talkw ith the person you HATE most...that is if you want it.

you see arh. if you were to spend one whole week with the person you hate most, you will become okay okay with the person at the end of the week. because you needed that person, to endure with you for a week.

not many people can hold so long with the hatred for another for long...
i am the type if i dun like you, i won force myself to be fake fake n smile at you and say HI! you roc.

i will just...steer clear of ur way.

yeps...but even that doesn;t hold long...i know that.cos i dun mind the person i dislike le.=))

everyone has their nice side. you just have to tolerate their bad points, and see their good points.

ALL humans are good =)

you can't hate your whole species for life, hatred can't hold that long =)

....kay enough! im going to bathe XD hahaha

















so todays lesson is...
1) don't keep harping on the past cos its useless. yeah. reflect on today, loook forward to tomorrow ...because tomorrow is your future
2) enemies= those who doesn't like you, and not those you don like
3) treat every human as what they are, be blind to their faults, and see only their good, the benifit is to you only...that person won have any benefit excapt to earn a friend.your benefit will be much greater =))
4) and if you do those above, you can stay happy! =))

yay yay yay yay yay yay yay

i am happy

=.= pathetic hahahahaha

GoodNite!